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fridaiii || march 31, 2006

I don't know why.. But i miss everything about school.. I miss my classmates.

Wala. I JUST MISS MY CLASSMATES. THAT'S ALL. =[

sundaiii || march 26, 2006

ok.. so.. grabe ang hirap ng thesis.

woke up at 8am. had my breakfast. champurado at tuyo. sarap. awesome food.

time check. now it's already 4pm and i still haven't had my lunch!!!! haven't eaten the ice cream yet!!! in short haven't eaten anything for almost 8 hours!!! why?? it's because of that thesis!!! i hate BIOSTATISTICS!!!! who would love it? even those people who are good in math.. they HATE IT!!! EVERYBODY HATES BIOSTATISTICS!!! arrrgghhhhh!!!!

Pharma students of UST are supposed to be having fun right now.. but WE JUST CANT because of that HELL THESIS!!! we still have to go back to school for the defense.. and f*ck it!! we had our defense yesterday but it was rejected.. not super rejected though. we just have to revise the title and the problem and the hypotheses and.... argh! basta! and we have to redefense everything again on MONDAY!!! SO SUPER SAGABAL SA VACATION!!! we're supposed to have our lovely summer vacation and look at what BIOSTATISTICS has done to us!!!! i super abhor everything about it!!!

fridaiii || march 17, 2006

my horoscope says:

"Taking action takes courage -- but you can do it! Dive right in and go for it."

ok.. i will. =]

tuesdaiii || march 07, 2006

You called yesterday to basically say that you care for me but that you're just not in love. Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly and led you to believe I was O.K. to just walk away from the one thing that's unyielding and sacred to me.

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it. And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you. But in reality I'm slowly losing my my mind. Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside. My friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly because I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering. So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night. And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry.

So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue of the pain that rejection is putting you through. Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive"? Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way"? Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away?

It'll break me down only if I let it. Everyday crucial situation wrackin' my mind tryin' to break me down. But I won't let it. Forget it. Forget it. I've been feelin' like you're breakin' me down. Kickin' me around. Stressin' me out. I think I better go and get out and let me release some stress. Don't ever wanna feel no pain. Hoping for the sun but it looks like rain. Oh, i just wanna maintain. Yeah, when I feel the pressure's on, but nevertheless I won't fall. IT'S OVER... IT'S ENDING HERE... HERE!

sundaiii || march 05, 2006

p*cha! ngayon pa lang ako magsisimula sa critique paper.. solo act pa ko.. hayyy... ang hirap!!!! ayoko na!!! not less than 10 pages!!!!!!!! eh isang page pa lang nagagawa ko. sh!t tlga.. sa wednesday na to.. huhuhu... nakakasar!!!!